The way i feel now i cannot describe. If its been a fucked up day for you, dun worry. Its been screwed for me too. Have been thinking for a while now, over the past few hours, of thing which have come and gone. I have to make a decision for things i will have to do in the future. Because life is like that. For everything you choose there are implications. There are consequences. The hardest part of it all to me that is, is having to live with stuff where i have no say in.
Today started late. Was only out of the house at about 4. Had driving. Am damn serious about it now coz there is no time left and i dun wanna play around nemore. I have wasted too much of my life. Everyday i wish i could have taken a step back. Driving went gd today. For the mock test only got 10 pts. Ok lar. Felt that i did drive ok today. At the end of the lesson, i was playing afool and damn fast in the s course and crank course... mounted curb after passing the s course... haha.. this goes to show it cant be done at really fast speeds. It was just for fun.. cant do that with my dads car you see.
At pickup, i screwed up by making ade think a lill bit too much. said somethings and never thought that she would take things seriously and think so much.. Not that its going to matter now. Guess who has ressurectted. Thats why i have time to blog now. haha. Hope she will take care of herself and not fall ill coz she is on the verge of it already.
O yes. A long while ago, i felt a strange feeling while with some friends friends but i put it aside and never thought about it. Now, some information has stirred it up an di cant help but wonder y. Why does the world have to be like this? why? A long time ago, i used to judge a person by their cover but since i was lyk what.. erm.. 17? i stopped and have learnt things are different. Thou shall not judge. Have i expected everyone to have matured? I believe that i have at least. Over the many years, over the situations with have come about. Over so many things. My view on this is still a lill lyk this... maybe its besides that pt but serious... i dun give a FUCK about what pple think of me coz i dun really care..... in contradiction to this, to those whom i really care about, i care more than you can imagine. ARGH. fuck it.
Koba has been really busy with his studies so and i have no one to confide so am feeling rather stressed out. What is it that i should be learning about my current life and lifestyle?
The core group of Disc Knights which is my ultimate frisbee club that me and my bud Stephen formed and since then has grown, we are gelled together by things which have a lill bit of a moral fucked-up-ness. There really should be a word like this in the dictionary. I'd vote it in. Sometimes it makes me wonder whether i have screw up my morals already. I'm not really like that but its weird how it just comes out when we are hanging out.
In some ways, i am like a chameleon. I conform to different colours in different surroundings. Is that gd or bad.. Hmm.. Things are the way they are for a reason rite? I dunno.
I would like to continue blogging but currently this has to end abruptly due to the constraints of me being too damn fucked up rite now.
-My sincere apologies-
-Gonna grab a drink- must sleep well today
-phone rings-
-strange how things work out-
Today started late. Was only out of the house at about 4. Had driving. Am damn serious about it now coz there is no time left and i dun wanna play around nemore. I have wasted too much of my life. Everyday i wish i could have taken a step back. Driving went gd today. For the mock test only got 10 pts. Ok lar. Felt that i did drive ok today. At the end of the lesson, i was playing afool and damn fast in the s course and crank course... mounted curb after passing the s course... haha.. this goes to show it cant be done at really fast speeds. It was just for fun.. cant do that with my dads car you see.
At pickup, i screwed up by making ade think a lill bit too much. said somethings and never thought that she would take things seriously and think so much.. Not that its going to matter now. Guess who has ressurectted. Thats why i have time to blog now. haha. Hope she will take care of herself and not fall ill coz she is on the verge of it already.
O yes. A long while ago, i felt a strange feeling while with some friends friends but i put it aside and never thought about it. Now, some information has stirred it up an di cant help but wonder y. Why does the world have to be like this? why? A long time ago, i used to judge a person by their cover but since i was lyk what.. erm.. 17? i stopped and have learnt things are different. Thou shall not judge. Have i expected everyone to have matured? I believe that i have at least. Over the many years, over the situations with have come about. Over so many things. My view on this is still a lill lyk this... maybe its besides that pt but serious... i dun give a FUCK about what pple think of me coz i dun really care..... in contradiction to this, to those whom i really care about, i care more than you can imagine. ARGH. fuck it.
Koba has been really busy with his studies so and i have no one to confide so am feeling rather stressed out. What is it that i should be learning about my current life and lifestyle?
The core group of Disc Knights which is my ultimate frisbee club that me and my bud Stephen formed and since then has grown, we are gelled together by things which have a lill bit of a moral fucked-up-ness. There really should be a word like this in the dictionary. I'd vote it in. Sometimes it makes me wonder whether i have screw up my morals already. I'm not really like that but its weird how it just comes out when we are hanging out.
In some ways, i am like a chameleon. I conform to different colours in different surroundings. Is that gd or bad.. Hmm.. Things are the way they are for a reason rite? I dunno.
I would like to continue blogging but currently this has to end abruptly due to the constraints of me being too damn fucked up rite now.
-My sincere apologies-
-Gonna grab a drink- must sleep well today
-phone rings-
-strange how things work out-
