Woke at 4 feeling queesy.... faught with the nausia for a bit and then decided that giving p would be better and my food hauled... There went the seafood combo i got from marche. I wonder how girls can take this feeling when they are pregnant or whatever. Its horrible. There was blood in my spit also.. Thats rather worrying but my dad said its normal so yeah. Well. I hope he is right.

The real question is, was it the seafood?

Fucking marche

Damn. I'm sick... seems that i caught the cold from the FB chalet. Shit..gee.. wonder who that can be.. sheesh... My test date was postponed and i'm seriously dreading it. I thought that i would have a chance to be able to try to pass it but i did not. I have no idea how i am going to but i pray that God will find a way.

Currently, i've just finished watching desperate housewives. The entire season 1.. power rite. HaHa.. seriously if you need a fix (tv shows), lemme know and i'll let you in on what i'm watching... good shit really... good shit

Do you ever look back and wonder?
Do you ever look back and think?
Has it all been worth it?
For all the things gone through?
We all worry for our futures,
we all worry for our lives,
we all worry for our love ones,
we hope we'd never say goodbye.
We pray for loved ones,
we commit our friends,
but seldom do we look in the mirror the see
the pain we hide inside.

I'm in that kinda mood........ heres a song fer u.


The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And i'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

Where do they go and what do they do?
They're walking on by. they're looking at you.
Some people stop, some people stare.
But would they help you and do they care?
How did you fall? did you fall at all?
Are you happy when you are sleeping underneath the stars?
When it's cold is it your hope that keeps you warm?
A spare bit of change is all that I give.
How is that gonna help when you've got nowhere to live?
Some turn away so they don't see.I bet you'd look if that were me.
How did you fall? did you fall at all?
Is it lonely where you are sleeping in between parked cars?
When it thunders where do you hide from the storm?
Could you ever forgive my self-pity?
When you've got nothing and you're living on the streets of the city.
I couldn't live without my phone.But you don't even have a home.
How did we fall? can we get up at all?
Are we happy where we are on our lonely little star?
When it's cold is it your hope that keeps you warm?
Where do they go and what do they do?
They're walking on by. they're looking at you.
They're walking on by. they're looking at you.

there are times when i feel like i have no choice but to be hard on people so that they will understand that my instructions should be followed and not ignored. Yes its about work and its not that i have a problem controlling my men but more of a i need to learn to be more mean to them. Others have adviced me to keep my distance between officers and the rest but i have not really listened. I guess i was too nice to them from the beginning. O well, we all learn new things everyday rite? guess that this is one of them. I will from tmr learn to be stricter on them and punish them if i need be to get my point across.

Where to study? where? what to study? damn my mind is so confused that i dunno what to say so much to do. Sigh. Time is ticking.

am so bored of the way this looks... think that i'm going to change it again and finally get the entire site fixed up... must find howie... need access to server..

Things so far have been rather cool. Most of the times, everything seems to go ok. Some stuff bothers me every once in a while though. The time to decide on my place of study is getting shorter and shorter... i've gotta decide really soon... i really hope that cheryl will be with me. That i leave to the lord. Haven heard from quite a few friends in quite a while... I hope that all is well with you.. If you do happen to read this, just beep me and i'll reply (depending if i'm at work or not.. the no camera phone thing in Changi Naval Base is a bitch)... Hope to hear from you all soon

Was chatting with Anand the other day and its come to my attention that some of us have unconsciously over an extended period of time built up a certain resistance to a once close knitted group which i chose to believe was a group which was not just bonded by something which we had participated in. Its quite disappointing to see things this way but i guess most have come to terms with it... xept me of coz.. i'm a tinge slow when it comes to friendship matters...