An incident happened at work today when one of my guys i din really like confronted me through some others. Well, all i can say is that i had never really thought that people would think that i was back stabbing them. But i am not suprised that he was.
In OCS, i had the the same feeling. But could it be the way i do things? Is that what depicts how we work? should it? At the end of the day i am happy that there was something that happened so that the experience would infuse itself into my head. Will i still work the way i work? Hell yes. I can do it no other way. When i look around, there has not been a job that can be done without comprimising on the standard unless the workers are all that good or the top exerts pressure on them but on the other hand i do not know everything. Through this i have learnt humility in a way. I have to admit that a certain part of me has the mind not to care since i have the authority but to me, thats not the way that God intends me to be. A lesson learnt, learnt well.
All that aside, i am actually rather worried about going all alone to aussie. Yes i have Koba but its been so long since we have actually seen each other and i dunno if his personality has changed. I really hope it has not but after what, 4 years, i can blame no one.
So many, so much to leave behind. My mental strength grants me the power to go but my emotional strength to some extent seems to be leeching terribly onto it. Lord grant me the power can will to go and keep me safe from what the future brings. Keep cheryl safe too. In our name. Amen.
In OCS, i had the the same feeling. But could it be the way i do things? Is that what depicts how we work? should it? At the end of the day i am happy that there was something that happened so that the experience would infuse itself into my head. Will i still work the way i work? Hell yes. I can do it no other way. When i look around, there has not been a job that can be done without comprimising on the standard unless the workers are all that good or the top exerts pressure on them but on the other hand i do not know everything. Through this i have learnt humility in a way. I have to admit that a certain part of me has the mind not to care since i have the authority but to me, thats not the way that God intends me to be. A lesson learnt, learnt well.
All that aside, i am actually rather worried about going all alone to aussie. Yes i have Koba but its been so long since we have actually seen each other and i dunno if his personality has changed. I really hope it has not but after what, 4 years, i can blame no one.
So many, so much to leave behind. My mental strength grants me the power to go but my emotional strength to some extent seems to be leeching terribly onto it. Lord grant me the power can will to go and keep me safe from what the future brings. Keep cheryl safe too. In our name. Amen.
