God is such an awesome God and a funny one as well. A few weeks ago, i received an email from someone in uni saying that i had been nominated for a PSP award. To be honest, i laughed coz i had not really been for all the classes can i really kinda met the bear minimum in order to complete those subjects. They are those with no credit. Anyway, i went for the ceremony today and i actually received a certification even though i din win. Dang!

Yet another day goes by and i just wanna receive and learn so much more. However, today's daily bread proved a little challenging. I could not really understand some parts of it and i suppose it will be revealed in due time. It kind of touched on the topic of never being shaken. "Who can separate us from christ". My answer to that is that nothing can separate me from his love. Neither death nor life nor angels nor principalities nor things present, nor things to come nor powers nor height nor depth, nor other created thing. So right now, i am asking myself what might shaketh me?

Death? I will hurt but i think it will do nothing but drive me closer. Life? Hmm.. Going on a tangent a little, havent so any of us said "oh that is the life". What is that really. Gee. Is it just our inner most desires of things which we cannot obtain? Well, either way, i take the stand. I refuse to be shaken. I am on a firm foundation. Angel? They are cool. I look through all these and i find that i've been totally transformed. Its so liberating and so awesome really.

Extracted abstract it is.

Lord i just give you all the glory. I give you all the praise.

I've decided that just reflecting on past sermons and other stuff i have learnt is not good enough. Its like there is something missing and i am so hungry for more.

It was only after talking to cheryl that i realised that my daily bread has not been very daily. Sounds strange? Anyway I just realised that and decided to follow a book my mum got for me ages ago.

Once again, its amazing how his plan is, and i seriously do not know how to explain it but its just so awesome. Anyway, I opened up to the page of the day and it just so spoke.

I've always been a person who loves "operations". How things work and whether its efficient and all that stuff. You know, TQM, BPR, Lean.. all that stuff... but i've never really sat down to look at how the things God has created fulfill their purpose. Matthew 6:26-28 (NASB), which is a verse that keeps coming up in the recent months, says "Look at the birds in the air, that they do not sow, nor reap, nor gathering into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you notworth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin."

Previously, what this ment to me just ment worry not, give it all to God, "Huck it to heaven" as Judah Smith says. But if you look closer, you look closer, there is something deeper. "Observe how the lilies of the field grow". How do they grow really? Firstly, i do not like plants but since it is written, i'll think about it. Bees and other bugs fertilise plants and they exchange pollen and get fertilised and the process goes on. If you need to know more, google it. I cant be stuffed. Anyway, the important part here is that the lilies are aiming at one thing alone. Arguably, plants cant move on their own, with the exception of the carnivorous plants. So what is it that plants focus on? Its the sun. Remembering the experiments of old, when you move plants, the grow towards where the sunlight comes from. For photosynthesis; you know, (just in case you are a 3 year old kid reading my blog, click here to find out more).

So whats the point right? Its this: we too, being created have to be focused in order to grow. Yes, each of us have our daily lives to run and get to. But we need to focus on the main thing that gives us live, strength. Its the only thing that feeds us spiritually. Without this focus on God and our relationship with God, you will spiritually shrivel. AND DIE.

If you are a non-christian reading my blog, and happen to read till here, lemme just say something. This generation, our generation is looking hard to find themselves. Sadly, as we look around we can see the rubbish people grab to fill the void they feel. Drugs, drinks, pain, sex. Whatever. And you know what, you may think its fun and all that. But i know one thing for sure. That is when you sit down at night, or whenever it is that you sleep, and you slightly ponder what lifes purpose is, you are void. You always wonder what if this happened, or if only i studied harder and worked harder and blar blar. Life ain't easy thats for sure. But the different for us christians is that we live a life of purpose. A purpose that cannot be shaken. A purpose that is real. Real to each and everyone of us. This purpose gives us what we need, spirtually and physically and mentally. Its the whole package. This purpose defines our meaning in life. It defines our very being. Its the sunlight to plants. (Just to clarify, i am in no way a plant. I am a meat eating dinosaur, hear me roar.) Anyway, this purpose is Jesus Christ.

"They do not toil nor spin". How much am i toiling and spinning. I worry about a place to stay starting July, I worry about PR and how long it will take, I worry about a multitude of things. And even when i surrender it all, i have to admit that its subconsciously still there. I subconsciously worry. And i so often fail to just be in his presence. Just to receive what i need.

So from today onwards, no toiling nor spinning. I declare from this day forth, the beginning of many exponential multiplications of double portions over my life. I will not toil, I will not spin. ( Btw, alot of this is directed to waking up during winter ). Lord, hear my cry, I need you to speak to me daily. And from this moment on, I will not miss even one day of this.