I wish i could sing this to everyone. I think it applies to everyone. I mean everyone. In one way or another. So, this is to all.


Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violence, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
I know you think it's more than just bad luck

There, there, baby
It's just text book stuff
It's in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin'
Oh don't lose your head'
Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

Sleeping pills, no sleeping dogs lie never
Far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this
Now is as bad of time as any

There, there, baby
It's just text book stuff
It's in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin'
Oh don't kill yourself'
Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

It's okay by me
It's okay by me
It's okay by me
It was a long time ago
It's okay by me
It's okay by me
It's okay by me
It was a long time ago

There, there, baby
It's just text book stuff
It's in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin'
Oh don't lose your head'
Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah
There, there, baby
It's just text book stuff
It's in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin'
Oh, don't kill yourself'
Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you, yeah

Its 345 am. I'm sitting at the house desktop pc which is in the living. I am scanning pictures for my mom.

The time draws near for the pseudo grand return. To the place of solace once more. People seldom think of solace as a bad thing but really, it can really make you go mad. Since i have returned, i have been reminded of how great it is to have friends around. Those that you can truely call friends. Those that will be there for you no matter what. And just when i have i have began to settle down, its once again time to leave. I am reminded of the cooking and washing and all which i will have to do. O those bills to pay. I wonder whether koba has already gotten the car. Its time to go crazy once more. I wonder if my mind will be able to take it.

Still, there is so much that i am supposed to do so hopefully i will get to that... but somehow i dun think that is going to happen. Java o java... i really hope that i can pick you up again else i am really damn screwed. So lets hope for the best. Dear Lord, please help me to do the rest.

I miss you planetshakers.

Awoke to dad's call... i was wondering what had happened and when he told me i was so fucking shocked.. the car's windscreen was shattered... the back one...seriously wtf right.. i also could not believe it. Summore i re parked the car to one of the good lots that was not under a tree after the manchester united match...

The first few thoughts were why the fuck does stuff like that happen? Did i piss off some fucker again? But i dun tink that it was my fault. The police have decided that its like killer litter so i dunno what to say. How bloody unfortunate.

To you who killer littered, may you be blessed with the most painful life of utter torment. From all the millions of tickets of lost 4d and toto, may you never every strike, not even consolation. and toto,not even close. From the cockscrew that was found too, may your liver swell beyond limits of happiness to unimaginable pain. All of this in a recycling bag means too that you dun give a shit about the environment so if i were you, i hope you stay out of the sun else you get skin cancer. But God says forgive your enemies so to me, you are forgiven. But what is already said, sometimes cannot be taken back. :)

Sim lim was a bitch too.. i wanted to beat some fella who cursed at my dad but i dun think i wanted to show my dad the bad side so i repressed it and man was it killing me... seriously.... wahhhhh....

but at least i have my super ram now ( i think that its making my computer so hot.... as in literally temperature hot man). and a new Hdd... my dad is taking the old one. I nv really thought this way but i think that my dad sometimes spoils me when i want the techie stuff... sometimes.... O well. I love him too. Thank you God for such a good dad. :)

To all of you guys i din see yet, a belated merry christmas and a happy new year.

i wonder whats with all the happiness and all that. Does the fact remain that seasons are ment to be jolly? Beats me. I have no idea. I'm beginning to feel so comfortable here. Though my beds a little small and the weather is quite hot but i dun really feel it coz i am mostly staying indoors. WTF rite. I have hardly gone out for a long time. Its like the austrlian life of solitude which i forced myself into. I can feel my body dying. It is said that excessive sleep causes more harm on your body den lack of sleep. I am wondering whether i wanna test that theory. o well.

I have been researching on things that i wanna buy. Or at least hope to. Technology is such a bitch sometimes. If anyone has lobang in sim lim or funan please let me know real quick coz i might just finally get my lazy ass up and go out. My want list is as follows:
1) 2 x 1GB PC5300 ddr2 667mhz SO-DIMM (would like to trade in my current ram)
2) 500GB 3.5" Seagate internal Harddisk 7200RPM 16mb cache SATA2
3) Vantec 3.5" Nexstar 3 Aluminum USB 2.0/Firewire 1394 External IDE Hard Drive Mobile Storage Enclosure Case with Stand: NST-360UF
4) 100 TDK DVDRs (+/- doesn matter)
5) Bluetooth Speaker (still researching)
6) Retractable Earphones (still researching)

Thing is that i dun even have money to buy these things!!!! ARGH... fucking hate it.....

In the previous 2 stints of consciousness which was about 40 hours, the bleaching proceeded to episode 57. Damn i am an addict. Freking couch potato. I have to haul my lazy ass up. But den again, maybe i'll go it tmr.