Someone dropped me a mail. Here's how it went. I was actually going to blog lotsa other things but after reading this, i have only one question. The msg goes lyk this:

To want someone to know u inside, you have to let open yourself up.
Before others can do the knowing, you have to take the first step to open.
Its useless to ask one to open the door when you have forgotten you had lock it long ago.
Reading you like an open book, doesn't mean you are easy to understand.
It more of surface than what's really in you.
Its not easy to know someone. To put ourselves in their position and advise.
Its easy to talk, but when it happens on us, its never the same.
Guess you realized this long ago.
As we grow, friends come and go.... matter is..... you still have them in your heart.
Of course there are ones there's around who are left behind..... are being left behind.
Well that's the cruel side of life.
But i believe there are more beautiful things in life to cover.
Though you or even me dun find them yet.... seems more bad ones are ard...
But its our life, our choice, to search for them...
But we can jus remain as miserable n uncontented as what we are now.
Commitments, friendship, family...... God.....
You know them all..... but are we searching for the right things?
Are our priorties right....
it sound complicated
But once you learn how to take things at a time
Solve one at a time
Things jus go your way.
Dun be trapped....
Cos its never worthed it...
Its not important for others to know who are you...
Cos end of the day,
what's more important its you...
Do You Know Yourself....
its from the heart...
and its never easy...
Cos till now.... i dun know myself that well
Pathetic huh...
SO cheers.....
Dun fill ur life with anger and complaints and hatred....
Sound like a pastor or old auntie right...
But guess i learn it somehow...
Even how small a thing is,
If you appreciate,
It can be so beautiful n make a difference in your life.
Andre...... search.... dun give up.... if you give up on urself..... who can help?
End of it, we got to be responsible for our lives right? Before finding the Right one before God.
Take care.

I know all of this. Y do i fuvking know all of this? Why? Cant i just be some dumb shit and not understand and be so astounded. Thanks though. Really. I really appreciate your concern. It means a lot to me. Its really got me thinking...

Question of the day : Have i given up on myself?

-i dont know-