I sit on the computer chair again, Forgetting when the last time i blogged. So much has happened in my camp. I'm sorry for talking about army but thats my life rite? thats all i have now and it'll be all i have for the mext 2 years or so. Its like a serious time consuming job.
I hate to admit it but i do kinda like army. Its something that one has to learn to love.
Well, i had an argument with my parents yesterday about my future. What i'm going to study after army and where... etc etc.... sometimes it gets so irritating that i cant take it. I feel like bursting out and just flaring but i have to myself to respect them for more than i can take simply coz i love them too much and i know that they want the best for me.
Have not mentioned much but the reason why i dun wanna stay in Singapore to carry out my tertiary education is because i have too much here that i remember. Could it be that i will regret if i do not stay? Its a debate to leave behind all that i have. All that i know for the 20 years of my life. I dun wanna remember jess too. I never want our roads to cross again. If i see her now, it be different. It be painful to the point of tears because the person whom i love (or have loved) with all i had is no longer the one i remember. Australia is a place i've been to many a times as a kid. Thanks lots to my parents. Its the culture there maybe? i cant imagine just not being able to drive to some beach or something and relax. Singapore is just so tense. Everything is moving at such a fucking fast pace.
I wish i had someone to rely on. Someone to be there for me. I'm afraid to find such a person though. The contradiction of yet another level. I have nothing to give. But on the other hand, if she can really sweep me off my feet den i cant say anything. I admit. I admit. I am afraid of loving again. There is too much at stake. Its like betting with a currency so expensive that no one has much of. Feelings.
Enough said for now.. time to ANIME!!!!!!!!
awaiting:
inuyasha 161
Gungrave
naruto 95
I hate to admit it but i do kinda like army. Its something that one has to learn to love.
Well, i had an argument with my parents yesterday about my future. What i'm going to study after army and where... etc etc.... sometimes it gets so irritating that i cant take it. I feel like bursting out and just flaring but i have to myself to respect them for more than i can take simply coz i love them too much and i know that they want the best for me.
Have not mentioned much but the reason why i dun wanna stay in Singapore to carry out my tertiary education is because i have too much here that i remember. Could it be that i will regret if i do not stay? Its a debate to leave behind all that i have. All that i know for the 20 years of my life. I dun wanna remember jess too. I never want our roads to cross again. If i see her now, it be different. It be painful to the point of tears because the person whom i love (or have loved) with all i had is no longer the one i remember. Australia is a place i've been to many a times as a kid. Thanks lots to my parents. Its the culture there maybe? i cant imagine just not being able to drive to some beach or something and relax. Singapore is just so tense. Everything is moving at such a fucking fast pace.
I wish i had someone to rely on. Someone to be there for me. I'm afraid to find such a person though. The contradiction of yet another level. I have nothing to give. But on the other hand, if she can really sweep me off my feet den i cant say anything. I admit. I admit. I am afraid of loving again. There is too much at stake. Its like betting with a currency so expensive that no one has much of. Feelings.
Enough said for now.. time to ANIME!!!!!!!!
awaiting:
inuyasha 161
Gungrave
naruto 95
