slowly fading away

As my time in bmt comes to an end within the next month, i look back and remember how i aimed to be either a platoon best, best physical training and stuff, i realise that those dreams are slowly fading. I failed to even get best Pt in the platoon in the last evalution test. Am so tired. Just hope that things will turn out well. Its good that many of our platoon members are beginning to excel so i wish them all the best. All i hope now, is that i will do the best that i can and be all that i can be. My ultimate target is to become an officer. If that fails i at least wanna become a good platoon sergeant. Only time will tell. Within this next month.

Quarrelled with my parents this morn. I hate it when that happens. I was suppose to send them to church and then make my way to my own church but i decided that i did not wanna do that. My dad got really pissed. I admit that my spiritual life is going downhill but i dunno why i dun seem to want to go back to church. I dun really understand it myself. When i agreed on that yesterday, i really din mind going to church but when i awoke this morn, things took a turn. Sigh. Why why why. I wonder.

Situation test is this week and i can only hope that i can do really well in this. There is so much to be done.

well, i am going to return to anime world to watch my naruto as i have no mood to blog right now.