to focus

hmm.. i wonder how many people are actually left reading my site. maybe i should put in a counter. will see if i have the time later. Btw, i have another 'blog' page thats catered to my ocs life. If there is nothing here you'll probably find it there. Have no time to do up the linking and all so i'll just dump it here (its so so so so not finished.. no time to add in the entries.. but it'll be up soon k.. within the next couple of weeks i promise.)

I spent yesterday with someone special from the past. It brought back much memories and much more. I dun regret meeting up yet i do. My head was seriously messed up after that. Very to the power of log dunno what. Deep down, i guess that the hope has not died just yet. It lingers on a very fine string. Jessica i have so much to say to you but the time is not yet right.

Had a chat with Anand and Stephen bout it(2 of my friends whom i treasure dearly). They helped me to reassure myself on what i should be doing. When your mind is in a mess, its hard to have total complete analytical perception as your own views are always swayed. I was reminded to focus on what i want and my current point of life. To once again take things one step at a time. To fix up the pieces of me. To settle down to my current life. To decide what i want. To take time to do so. To do what i wanna do. One step at a time. Not concurrently with too many things to take.

Thanks guys.

Not much time left coz i gotta pack my stuff so i'll leave you with this:



I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
I wish I could say all the things that I should say
Say 'em loud, say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

I wish I could share all the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars that keep us apart
And I wish you could know how it feels to be me
Then you'd see and agree
That every man should be free

I wish I could be like a bird in the sky
How sweet it would be if I found I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and look down at the sea
And I'd sing 'cos I'd know how it feels to be free

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
And I wish I could say all the things that I wanna say
Say 'em loud, say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud, say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud, say 'em clear
For the wholeWide world to hear

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One lifeWith each other
SistersBrothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I knew how it would feel to be free


o yes i should be out almost every weekend from now onwards so yeah!!!