a sudden frustration

I just finished watching the longest yard with cheryl and sudddenly my heart was heavy. Most probably was because of not going to work tmr. See, the duty thing goes something like this: duty followed by a normal working day and then an off day. Its a priveledge not an entitlement. Thats what they call it. Anyway, the thing that troubles me is that i am still new in the unit and i dunno what people will say behind my back. Sometimes, its just hard. Well, my senior, my DY OC, assured me to stay home so i've decided to do that since tmr will probably not be a fruitful day again. Basically i cant seem to get much work done in camp so maybe i'll look through some notes back here.... yeah rite.

The future is beginning to trouble me. will i have a bright future? will i do well and get a well paying job? will i be able to find one. Will i rise well in the management ladder? Will i be able to get back on track with God? Will i be able to?

Will i?