How do i put this? I have no idea whether i am right or wrong. Its always good just to be yourself and be what you wanna be but on the other hand, are you supposed to adapt yourself and your character to the surrounding? I myself am not sure whether i am able to answer that question. I am one whom believes in speaking your mind and heart whenever you feel like it. At times it causes spite and aggrevation. Especially in the army but well, i'm a rebel against politics... i seriously cant fucking stand politics of any kind. But reality proves again that we all have to blend in dun we. Have i been sticking out as a sore thumb that much? I think that as time has gotten by, everyone should have gotten used to me... Maybe i just haven tried to just be 'one of them'. I also have to say that my attitude from my sec days has not fully dissipated just yet.. and maybe that another vice thats been stuck with me. But army changes people. We all learn, have i not grown in the army. I have. I have alot and i dearly embrace that. I wish that i could please everyone but i know thats not possible. O lord, what do you want me to do. I dun care whatsoever about what others say and i feel thats me but if you want me to open up and listen and maybe just change or something, i guess that i will change. That choice, i leave with you.
