yet again. yet again. This feeling overcomes. Everything seems to disipate of colour. Depression? i dunno. i would guess so. Have realised that sometimes i rely on certain people to pull me through this life that i so dread to lead. Since i've booked out on friday night, i haven really been out with friends cept janna for dinner yesterday but that was all. Mainly i was so so tired and there was no one to go out with. Sad ya? i also think so. The tears no longer come. i have become so accustomed to it already. Army has taken up much of my time so what will it be if there was no army? would i still be suffering? would i. I'd like to know. It'd define whether i have truely grown from what i used to be. its been a fucking year dammit. How can it be that i have not yet jumped a chapter in my life. The little bits that are left dragging along. No everyone experiences this kinda thing so y me? one of the lucky few? just my luck ya. !@#$. am late. have to go.
