why?????

I dunno whats come over me. Esp over that last week. My heads playing games again. Argh.. Was so sure that i was over this. Am so confused. I dunno what i am doing. I live through the week for the day of bookout ( now known as liberty in the navy) to come out and when i dun have ne one to go out with i get depressed. Not really but a lill sian lar.. den as the hours go by, it starts to multiply and intensify. I realised another thing that i used to do alot was chat on the phone... weird for a guy right? yeah whatever... but every since that last year, its been so different and i;m beginning to miss it. I have been all this while but not as much as now. Die lar.. have no idea how i am going to be able to get through this week smoothly... I truthfully am uncertain. I'll back in camp in a lill bit. How? how?

Lord i pray for the serenity to fall on me again.
For me to look for you always.
Whether in times of joy, pain, etc.
but yet again if this is something that you require me to go through, i'll do it
but i am weak so please walk with me every step of the way.
i thank you for all you've done thus far.
I commit this week into your hands.
Cover me by your grace
never let me take my eyes off you.
Amen