Last you heard from me, i was drained. Now i am even more so. Current energy level: 25%. Its like all hell broke loose and its Midshipmen days (my navy training days) all over again. The 3-4 Hours of sleep packaged with the other 18-19 hours of constant stress and forcing the best out of yourself with only 1-2 hours to let the already overheated till its smoking mind sublimate into oblivion where you know and feel nothing (somewhat alike to ease).
Took on the load of the 4 devils today. If you are thinking of a shit load of kids and not hiring a maid in the future, think hard, think longer and think again. And if your answer is still yes, repeat the cycle. If you have taking organisational processes, you will see where i am getting at. But there is a exception. If you by some blessing from God, i mean it both in a sarcastic and non-sarcastic manner, have to these miraculous beauties, stand tall. Take a deep breath and pray for god-strength. Both mentally and physically because it will be of upmost importance. The basic need.
They have driven me up the wall, back from the ceiling. And that process have been going round and round or shall i say over and over all day. A cycle of endless pain and suffering, encompassed with mental destruction and with a dangerous amount of emotional attachment. I shall name them 12, 10, 8 and 6 so as to keep their identity secret. 12 has been a blatant liar the entire day, trying to weasel his way into and out of situations and always trying to get the last word and get everyone to listen to them. Outrageously blunt, so much so that nothing is going through a thought process in his head. I wanna scold him and really kick his ass but... maybe its the puberty kickstarting but either way the time is just wrong.... 10 has been ok. polite but rude at the same time. She is the least worry of them all. 8 has been barely ok. Very much like 10 but more kiddy but i cannot blame him coz he is a kid. Sometimes is too put down by the rest and creates a scene but he will be ok. At least 10 and 8 can share. 6... wow.. where should i start. She has magical powers to make people love her. and she totally gets her way. i have to admit that even sometimes i give in. I little bitch really. So spoilt. O well...ihave to say that even through all these, i love them unconditionally.
Exam results appear on the eighth. My fate will be shown. I dunno what to do. So come on everybody, pray for me. But to show the trust in God, and also coz i am so tired, i shall not worry. I declare i will do well in Your name. I place my trusts and hopes in you Lord.
So far the only i have to look for is my ducati juliet will arrive in 12 days. I comes along with a lifetime of endless nagging from the parents for the explicit cost. But i have been looking at juliet for about 5 years now and i think its finally time i bring her home. No matter the outcome.
Lord i pray you cover them with the protetion, your blood keep them safe and pave the way and footstep of which they are to tread. Show her your light that her heart will be less heavy and as she drives around to get stuff to allow them to just function properly, that you keep her safe. Keep her mind alert as she treads upon this path so painful. Give her the wisdom of what is to be done and the stregth to perform the task. In your glorious name. Amen.
*time*to*crash*
Took on the load of the 4 devils today. If you are thinking of a shit load of kids and not hiring a maid in the future, think hard, think longer and think again. And if your answer is still yes, repeat the cycle. If you have taking organisational processes, you will see where i am getting at. But there is a exception. If you by some blessing from God, i mean it both in a sarcastic and non-sarcastic manner, have to these miraculous beauties, stand tall. Take a deep breath and pray for god-strength. Both mentally and physically because it will be of upmost importance. The basic need.
They have driven me up the wall, back from the ceiling. And that process have been going round and round or shall i say over and over all day. A cycle of endless pain and suffering, encompassed with mental destruction and with a dangerous amount of emotional attachment. I shall name them 12, 10, 8 and 6 so as to keep their identity secret. 12 has been a blatant liar the entire day, trying to weasel his way into and out of situations and always trying to get the last word and get everyone to listen to them. Outrageously blunt, so much so that nothing is going through a thought process in his head. I wanna scold him and really kick his ass but... maybe its the puberty kickstarting but either way the time is just wrong.... 10 has been ok. polite but rude at the same time. She is the least worry of them all. 8 has been barely ok. Very much like 10 but more kiddy but i cannot blame him coz he is a kid. Sometimes is too put down by the rest and creates a scene but he will be ok. At least 10 and 8 can share. 6... wow.. where should i start. She has magical powers to make people love her. and she totally gets her way. i have to admit that even sometimes i give in. I little bitch really. So spoilt. O well...ihave to say that even through all these, i love them unconditionally.
Exam results appear on the eighth. My fate will be shown. I dunno what to do. So come on everybody, pray for me. But to show the trust in God, and also coz i am so tired, i shall not worry. I declare i will do well in Your name. I place my trusts and hopes in you Lord.
So far the only i have to look for is my ducati juliet will arrive in 12 days. I comes along with a lifetime of endless nagging from the parents for the explicit cost. But i have been looking at juliet for about 5 years now and i think its finally time i bring her home. No matter the outcome.
Lord i pray you cover them with the protetion, your blood keep them safe and pave the way and footstep of which they are to tread. Show her your light that her heart will be less heavy and as she drives around to get stuff to allow them to just function properly, that you keep her safe. Keep her mind alert as she treads upon this path so painful. Give her the wisdom of what is to be done and the stregth to perform the task. In your glorious name. Amen.
*time*to*crash*
