met andrea today. It was great to see a familiar face. Finally someone to really talk to. Though it was just for a little while i still truely appreciate it.

Came back at about 5 plus coz someone needed to claim her stuff from koba's apartment as we are moving out soon. Tried studying after that but i knocked out again. I dunno whats wrong with me. Sigh. I try hard to keep at it but i keep napping and it really spoils the studying mood. I wonder whether there is not enough oxygen somewhere or something. Could be coz i always close all the windows as its cold.

Some times i get so fed up that i just wanna break something. Sigh. I am trying so hard to control it. What used to be my only outlet and ease has sometimes turned out to be fucking hostile and i dunno what to do. Wherever i look i see nothing to pour it out to except God. Still i hear nothing from him anyway. But still i continue to seak.

Lord. take care of her health esp since that she has started her night classes. I pray for energy for her. I also ask if you can take away that spitefulness which i am so much on the end of. I have placed my worries and your word says do not fear. I pray you reinforce my strength. Both mentally and physically. That i may channel all that i have for my studies.