185 vs 181

spirits are low, tempers are high. The disagreements are mounting one after another. Objectives not met yet still we go on so we had to seek higher authority. Briefed my OC on the situations and had everyone express their feelings and 2 cents worth on the training for the reservice guys. When i ask myself whether i will be like that in the future, i cannot answer. I have no idea what the future does hold. Could my potential which so many others long ago have faded to zilch? Or have i always looked up ono myself by too far a factor.

Anyway, everything was settled due to the defects causing too much of a problem to sail. But one can see how much hostility there was between the 2 sqadrons. I just hope that nothing happens tmr. I have a bad feeling.

Was also scolded by a MAJ today for not greeting him(senior officer he said). Seriously.. WTF.. too thick skin...

Please please i just wanna ORD in peace