Dear God, although there is doubt in me, i'd like to thank you for placing the hurdles in life which i had to learn how to cross by nyself. You have been there always. I've never really taken much time to thank you coz once in a while, it still hurts and the searing pain reappears from the void which i've been trying to close up for so long. But i dun regret it. At least i do not blame you one but anymore. well, maybe its just human nature to want to have someone. You've retaught me the meaning of friendship though and i see relationships now with a totally new light. My hopes and dreams i'll leave to you. You know what i want so dearly but if its not time yet den just supply the needs ya? There has been so much that i've seen you've done for me. From the way i see things, you have taught me much of what i never would have learnt. Not many will say that you've been there all the time but i think that i can. I say this knowing in faith that when i go for mstd, not being able to rely on anyone at all that you'll be there. I sucks that i am not able to hear your voice though. I wish i could. It'd be so cool. Well, i cant type much anymore. I have to go and pack my stuff. I dread going back to camp and currently at this time am feeling rather down. Dunno what to say le. Amen
